Friday, December 14, 2012

heavy heart.

this morning, a 24 year old man shot up an elementary school.
at least 20 innocent beautiful children, and 6 gracious adults.
children who had their whole lives ahead of them. adults who made it their job to educate the youth and keep our children safe.

{he also shot his brother at his home in NJ, before driving 80 miles or so to the school, where he shot his mother, a school teacher - and the others. then himself}

what is the world coming to when you cant do anything to keep your child safe anymore?

there have been a ridiculous amount of shootings this year. inside malls, inside hair salons, movie theaters... and now inside elementary schools.

im not going to get into the gun situation, because to be honest - after that theater shooting in colorado, i wanted nothing more than to have a gun of my own. i couldnt help but think if i was sitting in a movie theater and someone came in with a gun to start shooting, if i had a gun of my own, what would i have been able to do to save others or stop the shooter? purely self defense. & thatll never change. but i cant believe they dont pay more attention to who they hand a gun over too.

as a woman who hopes to become a mother and raise children in this world, how can i even explain those emotions? how can anyone who is a mother?

i dont know where our generation went wrong. but i am so afraid to send out my future children into a world with this much violence.

viewers around the world are crying in sadness. our president, Mr. Obama himself, is crying in sadness.

my heart is so heavy for the world today. soggy for those in connecticut.

Lord, please help our world. we need the restoration that only You can bring.
praying for all of those affected in these tragedies.


Wednesday, December 12, 2012


i cant wait for this day to be over, because i am SO over seeing everyone talk about this being the last time they'll ever see this date.


you'll never see 1/2/3 again, 4/5/6, 8/11/12, 12/10/12 again neither. thats how time works.

and i dont think 12/12/12 is the last repetitive date some of us will ever see.

i believe my husband will live another 88 years and see 1/1/1.

i also believe your kids will see 1/1/1 too.

that is all. today is a sluggish day. i just wanted to document. heh. ill be back later with a better post!

Saturday, December 8, 2012

its the holidays.

& with the holidays, comes holiday parties.

husbands work company is OBSESSED with each other. OB.SESSED i tell you. these people are together 40+ hours a week, go on 3-4+ trips a year together and that is never enough.

last weekend, we had the holiday party over at pinstripes. dinner, prizes, bowling and bocce ball.{which i miserably failed in bowling, but came out on top with bocce! beginners luck i tell you}

this weekend/tonight, a rep's assistant (courtney) is inviting everyone over to her house for dinner and drinks.

& next weekend, we're at a rep's house (leif) for a christmas party! leif and his wife chelsea are pretty great tho, and since isaiah has moved offices from downtown to edina, we dont see leif enough.

but oye. i simply can not keep up. and im willing to bet that half the reason is because i no longer drink. the last time i drank was our wedding back in august. i pretty much cut it cold turkey in my ocd phase to get my body the best it could be to increase any chance i could to become pregnant. quit drinking, eat clean & start prenatals. not to mention it didnt make for the best compound with the 4 medicines i am on. cool with me, i think i could go the rest of my life without a drink really. but these co-workers of my husbands think im a total alien.

i wonder whats on the agenda for new years.

do you have a lot of christmas parties this season?!