Thursday, July 11, 2013

time really flies.


it seems like it was a week ago;
that i was crying in the fertility clinic after not having follicles mature enough.
& again leaving a few days later, bawling in my car because i only had one follie.

it seems like it was just a few days ago;
that isaiah was stabbing my belly with a needle.

it seems like just last night i had an ugly breakdown;
swearing id never be pregnant. as isaiah was so confident with his faith, telling me it will happen.
where i got so mad at him because for just one moment - i wanted him to let me be negative. let me have my moment.

it seems like just this morning;
that i saw those two pink lines on my first wondfo.
and then another.
and then another.

you bet that after 22 months of nothing, i peed on 27 of those bad boys.
thank you wondfos for being so cheap.

& now?

here we are.
38 weeks and 3 days.
nine. months. pregnant.

due to meet our baby boy in just 12 days.
less than two weeks.

as i feel him squirm in my belly, i get nostalgic.
really, i get all sorts of emotions.
and lately? it usually ends up in tears over the day that i wont be feeling him anymore.

fast forward to the next moment, when i have to go pee, i feel let down.
because theres no discharge. no mucus plug. no bloody show. no contractions.
& i want nothing more than to meet him. to see his face. kiss his toes.

its a roller coaster, waiting around for such a big moment in these last two weeks.

i am elated.
i am over the moon.
i am in awe.
i am emotional.
i am anxious.
i am grateful.

i am blessed.


i cant wait to meet you baby boy. and neither can your daddy. 
<3





23 comments:

  1. This post makes my heart so happy for you guys! I can't wait for the announcement that he's here!!!

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  2. This is getting my amped up for his arrival! SO SOON!!!!!

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  3. I can SO relate to this post. I had just started a post just like this. It's amazing how life can change so quickly and in a way you wondered if it EVER would. It's amazing. I am so so excited for you!!

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  4. I loved this post! We are getting ready to start treatments for infertility and its post like these that keep my spirits high! Thanks Sarah!

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  5. Soooo happy for you guys!!!

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  6. Awwww I love this post!! And I'm so excited for you to meet him (and to find out his name!!). 27 tests??? That's a lot of pee!

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  7. smooches!!! I have similar thoughts back to tears and loss and I cannot believe the little blessing in my tummy now xoxo

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  8. I love this (aaaaand you're making me cry - AGAIN).
    There will be days you'll miss feeling him in your tummy, but when you are FINALLY able to savor his sweet smell, and admire every single inch of his smooth, perfect skin once he's in your arms, you won't miss those movements as much. Pinky swear.

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  9. Wow! What an awesome post! I know exactly how you feel on wanting to meet your baby!! It's so hard not getting anxious when it could happen any day now. I know he will be everything you ever dreamed of when he arrives. Good luck momma!

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  10. Wow! What an awesome post! I know exactly how you feel on wanting to meet your baby!! It's so hard not getting anxious when it could happen any day now. I know he will be everything you ever dreamed of when he arrives. Good luck momma!

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  11. And you made me cry. Again.
    Just wait till you hold your sweet boy in your arms. Then your tears will be because you just love him more than your heart can hold and you can't believe you're so lucky that he's yours and that you get to be his momma.

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  12. Such a sweet post!! Thanks for making me have my 2nd morning cry!! :) Can't wait to see the announcement that he is here!!

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  13. this make my heart :)
    so happy for you both!!!

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  14. Oh my goodness, what a sweet post! What an incredible journey you've already been on, with so many more adventures coming up! I hope you get to meet your baby boy very very soon!

    Sarah @ Life As Always

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  15. I love that picture!!! He will be here soon enough :)

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  16. Don't worry!! He will be here before you know it, I promise! I know it's so hard to do while you're so anxious to be holding your baby boy, but enjoy this time with just you and your hubs. The first couple months after baby comes you will be wishing for a quiet moment with your hubs where you aren't sleep deprived and worrying about everything else that needs to get done, or just cray cray with the hormones ;)
    You two are going to be the BEST parents!

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  17. Such a sweet post! Good luck with everything, I'll be watching for updates :)

    XOXO

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  18. Love this post. It's going to happen any time now. You are going to be such a great mommy :)

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  19. So sweet. Loved this. I remember those last few weeks - feeling torn between wanting pregnancy to last forever and wanting it to end immediately. I'm on pins and needles waiting to hear about your little guy's arrival!

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