Friday, September 27, 2013

parents night out.

crue turned 7 weeks last friday. {8 weeks today! WHAT?!}

it was also our first night out as parents!

i spent all week in pure panic for this night to come and for me to leave crue. it was going to be the first time i had ever left him. period! i havent even left him alone with isaiah yet, other than to take a quick shower. isaiah kept telling me that i could stay home, and id be lying if i told you that i didnt contemplate the idea. every. single. day.

date nights for isaiah and i have always been so important to us. they've been a part of our relationship since we first met and we try to do them on a weekly basis.

just because im a mom now, that doesnt change the fact that i am a wife also. just because i am so in love with crue, im also still so in love with isaiah! it was important to me that i always make isaiah feel important. as a father and a husband. so i put on my big girl panties and got ready for date night. just the two of us. 

isaiah got home from work to come shower crue with quick kisses, pick me up and head right back out the door for our night. it was all organized by his work company as a chance to take out some clients. i cried before we got off our street. and bawled until we parked our car at our destination. oops.

we went downtown to Solera for a cocktail hour and dinner, then out to the Orpheum for the broadway play Wicked. isaiah brought his clients Andy and Sophie -- loved them! cocktail hour was meh. its been quite some time since i had worn heels and i was surprised by how quick my feet were hurting in one of my favorite pairs that i could have ran a mile in a year ago! AND. i didnt even have a drink. i know that i can, but i am just too afraid to pump & dump. even though it would have been hours before getting home, i really wanted to nurse crue before bed and i suppose that just took priority in my mind. (so whos taking me out for my first drink!?) dinner was my favorite part. and it was nice to be around some other adults but Andy and Sophie were by far my favorite. we had really good conversations. they just got married 2 weekends ago! i remember those fun times :)

i have to admit. i didnt like wicked. so sue me. maybe its because i couldnt see due to the big heads in front of me? that was annoying. the lady that played glinda was really ditzy and while everyone thought she was funny, i thought she was annoying. and THEN. my boobs turned frankenstein and got really hard. so that was painful. the first half of the play was not going well for me. i had isaiah feel my boobs at one point, and wide eyed he said to me "i totally forgot about those! do you want to go express in the bathroom? we can go home. you and crue are first, lets go home at intermission". while i didnt want to go home because had clients and potential clients with us, i knew i didnt want to express myself and waste milk in the bathroom either. i was told the play was 8-10, so i looked at my phone and told isaiah it was okay, i could wait until the end. then intermission came. it was 9:40. no way this thing was ending at 10! i headed out to the bathroom, only to be caught in a mob of rude rude ladies. my lord! isaiah found me and needless to say, we left at intermission. my boobs were painfully hard, i had to pee, and we missed our beeb. Andy and Sophie were SO understanding. we have plans to hang out with them next weekend for the parade of homes tour - so thats good!

we got home and i was so so happy to get my hands on crue! our night didnt last as long as we had planned for, but it was a good start. there will be many more chances to attempt another date night and slowly stay out longer hour by hour.

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

newborn favorites.

well, were seven weeks into this mom thing - and it doesnt take much to make crue happy so far! of course his favorite thing is to nurse, but other than that - we've figured out some pretty good things :)

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1. swaddle swaddle swaddle. the tighter the better. my boy loves being a burrito. id feel safe to bet $1000 thats its his favorite thing in the entire world.
2. people rave about these a+a blankets. isaiah couldnt justify the price on them - until he felt the bamboo set. so of course thats what we have. their perfect for our summer beeb. i wont even go on about how soft they are. crue loves to snuggle them. rub them on his cheek? he swoons.
3. the groegg! i REALLY wanted this, but it took forever to find! i need to sleep in the cold. when i was pregnant, i often wondered what i would do with the temperature i like vs the temperature my baby would need it to be. this changes colors based on the temp so when i wake up in the middle of the night i can just peak over and ease my mind.
4. mamaroo. the first thing isaiah ever fell in love with and probably our first purchase late last year. crue first slept through the night in his mamaroo. that night alone made it worth the money!
5. our glider and ottoman. because no nursery is complete until you have a comfortable chair. i often spend time rocking with crue as we nurse or read books - and its probably my favorite time of our day. it definitely saved me on our roughest night when it was 4am and crue still hadn't fallen asleep.

{Not Pictured}

6. sleep pillow noise app for iPhone - nothing calms crue down quicker than blasting the loud white noise static, and nothing keeps him happy longer than the rain sound. forget the sleep sheep. it is just far too quiet, and the timer is annoying. if he happens to get in a major tizzy - we dont really get frantic ourselves because we always have our phones on us to use as a last resort. i swear it replicates the sounds from my womb the best (because i remember what thats like right?!)... since this boy was waaay overdue and STILL didnt want to come out - he seems to enjoy anything that semi resembles being inside mah belly.
7. infantino tummy time mat - not in love with tummy time. however, the mirror and the colors?! oh sure sure! he rather roll over. but even when he does that there are some fun toys and an elephant to look at.
8. swing - we realized that crue is a big fan of the 5 S's from happiest baby on the block. before we even left the hospital, they worked like a charm. one of the things that crue would fall asleep too was resting on our knees going side to side in the windshield wiper motion. after not taking more than 5 day time naps in 7 weeks, we just bought this swing and he loves it. he doesnt always take a nap in it - but he stays content the longest time period when hes in here, allowing mama to make herself a quick lunch. winning! (the mamaroo is in our bedroom, so even though he loves that, im not dragging it all over the house. so we keep this swing is in our living room!)
9. hands free bra - life saver. iiii love this. i must admit though, it is a pain to have to fully switch bra's. i do must of my pumping in the middle of the night because i cant seem to get the chance during the day and switching bra's is just NOT happening. when i do get a chance to really sit down and pump, this really helps me out. i wish i had came across this one first - but i didnt. and now i cant justify spending $100+ on two bra's. even if it would make my life a little easier. perhaps later... baby #2 anyone?!
10. milky - MY FAVORITE. i insert it in my bra when i nurse crue, and it catches all the milk that i leak :) we all know that breast milk is equal to gold.

we also cant forget that crue loves walks in the stroller, showers with daddy, and baths with mommy :) we've got a great baby on our hands. and i am so thankful! 

the one product i've found to be useless? a boppy, the mombo, brest friend... whatever you prefer. mine is always sitting downstairs on our couch but it just annoys me. it was one of the last purchases we made and i wish we hadnt. perhaps its because i never started out using it due to the c-section? it really irritated my incision and just seemed to cause more discomfort than help. 99% of the time i just use a regular couch pillow to prop crue on. works fair enough.

Friday, September 20, 2013

too much sweetness.

all photos by rosy cheeks photography

these were taken when crue was 7 days old exactly.
{of course we were both still so puffy}
i feel like he has already changed so much!
& now, its as if i blinked and hes already 7 weeks old.
it was pretty hectic to find & schedule a newborn photographer, but i am so glad we had them done!
i wish i could have one come every week :)

i never want to forget the little things.
how his hair sticks up.
the way he always inserts his thumb between his pointer & middle finger.
how his hand rests on my boob after a feed.
how his foot fits within daddy's hand.
that there are always lint balls stuck in his teeny toesies.
& even that his toots are really stinky.

heres to many more weeks of being your mommy little man

Monday, September 16, 2013

a case of the mondays?


who cares about it being Monday when you have baby smiles?!

Friday, September 13, 2013


{the sunshine award is given to bloggers who's posts brighten your day}

Leah over at Mrs Mama D nominated me today :) and let me tell you. i couldnt have received such a positive thing at a better time. thank you Leah for helping me smile today! 

here are the rules:
1. include the sunshine award icon in your post (above)
2. link to the person who nominated you
3. answer 10 questions about yourself
4. nominate 10 bloggers to receive the award
5. link your nominees and let them know they've been nominated

here are Leah's questions for her nominees - along with my answers.

1. what is your favorite boy band of all time? something corporate <-- they are my favorite band period. hands down. and i totally love(d) n*sync too.

2. what is your favorite vacation spot? cruising. specifically to the caribbean. i LOVE labadee ( a private island owned by rrcl in haiti) and st. maarten. were obsessed with the ocean over here ;)

3. what is the hardest thing youve ever had to do? 2 things. 1))motherhood/breast feed. i thought we were doing so well. until i found out today crue isnt gaining the weight he should be. my emotions are all over the boards now. 2)) say goodbye/watch my crapa die.

4. wine, beer or mixed drinks? if you asked college sarah - she'd say mixed drinks. dr pepper and rum, pineapple juice and vodka. if you ask "adult" sarah - she'd say wine. but only moscato... though i have to be honest, its been over a year since ive had an alcoholic drink.

5. whats one thing youve been putting off? calling ameda about my stupid squeaking pump.

6. sweet or salty? usually salty... i love chips.

7. if you could go back in time for 24 hours, where would you go and what would you do? id go on our honeymoon cruise again with isaiah.

8. what is your next big goal for yourself? become pregnant again.

9. what is your favorite app on your phone BESIDES the usual social media (twitter, fb, IG)? haha.. i dont think i use any other apps? maybe the white noise app for crue! or ohhh.. postalpix.

10. where is your favorite place to shop, for YOURSELF? pre pregnancy... the gap, asos or the loft. but right now? every store makes me run right back out.

the 10 bloggers i nominate:
1. desiree from Macke Monologues
2. allison from The Boutwell's
3. ap from ILYMTC
4. molly from Stilettos and Diapers
5. kenzie from The Aschraft Bunch
6. brin from Bold Butter Baby
8. kaitlyn from Wifessionals
9. shannon from Life After i Dew
10. aislinn from Ms Baby Makin'

my 10 questions for you are: 
1. what is your biggest joy?
2. what is one of your favorite memories?
3. what is your biggest fear?
4. what is your favorite thing about fall?!
5. what is your favorite thing to wear/wardrobe staple?!
6. youre on a road trip... what cd do you play?
7. favorite quote?
8. favorite thing to buy?
9. dream vacation is... 
10. whats your favorite piece of advice?

i cant wait to hear from you girls and read some responses!

Friday, September 6, 2013



crue is such a joy. he has grown so much and i am loving these smiles.

have a great weekend :)

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

new mom = busy mom!


we are still in the swing of this new mom business, and staying home with a baby is a full time J-O-B! my husband has time to shower, brush his teeth and eat on a daily basis... but me?! i think majority of the days i am brushing my teeth for the first time when he gets home. and eating? too bad crue man shoe just cant share his milk with me.

our last grocery trip consisted of buying anything that was simple for me to eat while not being complete junk {im no longer eating for 2 after all}. i've grabbed oatmeal, pop tarts, and things for making sandwiches. but ive quickly come to realize not even THAT is quick enough!

want to know what has worked best for me to be able to eat something during the day?

yogurt. yoplait yogurt. fruitful!
THANK GOODNESS. its not plain, it tastes delicious, and i can eat it with one hand to avoid a screaming baby. win-win-win!

before getting pregnant, i hated yogurt. but this yoplait stuff is the bees knees for so many reasons. yoplait has over 40 flavors so i am constantly able to switch it up day in and day out. they even have greek yogurt in their line! {if you are a fan of that healthy stuff, haha}

yoplait fruitful's are my favorite of the bunch. they are a brand new product only available in some state, have no artificial flavors or sweeteners. and the best part? they have 1/3 cup of fruit in 6 different flavors!

click here to get a coupon and try your very own flavored fruitful!

this post is sponsored by yoplait - all opinions are 100% my own.

Monday, September 2, 2013

crue: ONE M0NTH!

photo by rosy cheeks

i can not believe my sweet boy is 0NE M0NTH 0LD!

i will never forget what an amazing whirlwind of a day august 2nd (and 1st!) was.

spending all of those hours on the 1st watching over him on the monitors, laboring in the tub & soaking up those last moments with isaiah in anticipation of what was to come. 
and on the 2nd we spent the entire day with a new sweet baby boy in our arms getting to know one another!

as i type this out right now, its 11:15AM and crue is STILL asleep! so i am sure this post is going to get published at some rando hour... because i am waiting to take a picture of course ;)

weight: 8lbs 13oz

sleep: two 5-6 hour stretches! 11pm to 4/430am & 5/530am to 10-11am. 
we all go to bed at the same time together and thats totally okay with all of us :) isaiah wakes up for work around 4/430am 95% of the time and that is when he will wake crue up for his bottle. after that they hang out and walk the dogs before he puts crue back down for the second stretch. crue will sleep, so if theres a day isaiah doesnt need to be up until later (5/530) he will just wake crue then and it doesnt affect his second stretch at all. it is really nice having him sleep through the nights already. but i have to tell you that he does not nap during the day. hardly ever. hes taken a day time nap 4 times, and all of them have been on the weekend while we were out shopping... a moving stroller or shopping cart. at home during the day? no naps. and they are long days. so thank you jesus for a good nights rest! 
(last night he slept 11pm-7am when we woke him! & again 8am-12noon)!

eating: this boy, i tell ya! his first days in the hospital and week home were the perfect schedule. he was hungry every 3 hours ON THE DOT. and in between those hours? he would be awake for about 30 minutes then sleep. oh it was glorious. but now? he wants to eat - ALL. DAY. LONG. i feed on demand, but i would like that to be every 2 hours or so, and it kind of works out with our daily routine. although majority of the time - we dont make it every 2 hours. ill feed him at 2, he will stay on the boob until 3 and its not unusual if hes back on before 4. the things we do for our babies eh?!

*i am breast feeding and pumping. isaiah gives crue 1 bottle in the mornings so i can keep sleeping and they can have their daddy/son time together. it works out really well for all of us. (we also like to bring a bottle with us if were on the go incase of an emergency (ie: screaming session in the car). 
pumping was working out much better when crue was on his own 3 hour schedule, but these past two weeks or so it has been really hard to pump during the day with him nursing so often. & that is really stressing me out. i never hated pumping until now. it is giving me more mixed signals than a damn dude! this morning i woke up at 430am to pump, after 30 minutes of that i noticed not a single drop came out of my left, and i only got 1oz from my right. ive been having a hard time lately wondering if crue is getting enough and having actual nightmares about my supply going away so i started taking 6-8 fenugreek pills a day. i've been doing that for 6 days now and havent noticed a difference. :(( we've got one sad mama on our hands over here. BUT. isaiah is being really supportive, crue is having a good number in dirty and wet diapers while he appears to be nursing just fine. so i need to try and woosah over this stupid pumping issue. it plays mind games with me. 

breast feeding was a bit tricky in the hospital and they ended up giving me a shield to help with his latch. crue latched on to that immediately and we've been using a shield since. i really hope to wean him off of it though. i am offering him my nipple without it every day in the middle of a feed but it hasnt been working as much as he tries. hopefully going to a new lactation cafe next will help us both out!*

mood: my favorite moments of the day are when he wakes up & we just finished nursing. he is happy, content, alert and awake for a good 20 minutes or so. he is generally a pretty happy baby. he is very easy to calm down when hes upset. we havent been desperate where we've had to try things like the dryer or vacuum noise. thank the lord! he does not sleep through the day so if were not nursing hes pretty fussy (i swear hes hungry all day... going back to my supply insecurities). i do feel like hes a happier baby for daddy vs. mama though so theres some sadness going on because i think crue only sees me as a giant boob right now and not a provider of anything else :( we're all getting to know each other still and figure it out. doing the best we can!

milestones: hes had his first blowout (one and only one!) on daddy, made his first trip to the MN state fair (twice!), first bath, first shower, first car ride, first lunch out (to davonni's) after his first newborn photo shoot, attended church, first afternoon & late night restaurant outings (ole piper & buffalo wild wings), first nursing session in public, first date night out on the town with mom & dad, first trip to the doctors, target and the mall, first bottle from dad, met great grandma lucille, met great grandma madelyn, dipped his toesies into a pool, and he sleeps through the night!

loves: bath time with mama and shower time with daddy. i dont know which of us 3 love it the most but it melts my heart FOR SURE. crue is so snuggly, calm and at peace in either the shower or bath. he hated his first bath in his tub alone so since then one of us have always joined him. we havent tried his tub again yet but im in no hurry - i am loving those baby snuggles and wide eyes staring back at me! he also absolutely loves being in our wrap. specifically with daddy. love love love. im convinced his life would be 100% different without the A+A bamboo blankets. he swoons over those things. and the sound of rain! 

he does much better with getting buckled in and being in his carseat these days. both in the car and in the stroller. not sure he loves either but theres a whole lot less of fussy time ;)

i have not been away from him yet. isaiah and i are supposed to take some of his clients out for dinner and to see the show "Wicked" later on this month -- mama is not happy. lets just say i probably mention how panicky i am to isaiah on a daily basis. first babysitter? that milestone i am not eager to hit.

mama: one month pp. havent had a single crying session {yet}! i feel like thats a big deal. still dont fit into any prepreg pants, cant even get them over my butt. not fitting into many prepreg shirts or dresses either due to my milk boobies. super super frustrating and leaving the house is hell when it comes to finding an outfit. i can't even get some maxis on that i wore 9 months pregnant. THE HELL???! i have my 6 week check up on sept 13th & i think i am healing pretty well thus far. ive got 9-10 pregnancy pounds left to lose. and hopefully an additional 20 more after that, at least the 10 i gained pre pregnancy due to the metformin and infertility meds. heres to praying that shedding 20-30 more pounds is do-able! but even more frustrating than the pounds? is the saggy skin fold ive got. i still cant see my incision and i have a fupa. i dont care what the scale says, but please oh please go away extra skin. i also have stretch marks on the back of my legs to my knees. MY KNEES! ugh. we have a cruise in 5 months and i dont think i'll be getting in any sort of swimsuit... or shorts. :(

time is really flying.