Thursday, May 28, 2015

baby G2 : maternity photos

some girls are just born with glitter in their veins 
36 weeks

all photos by Rosy Cheeks Photography

we got over 100 photos back from this session. some are not even edited, and i do not care one bit. the photographer had a hard time choosing her favorites so she ended up giving us much more than any of us anticipated! i am in love with every single one. i can't count on all my fingers & toes how many photo sessions isaiah and i have done over the last 5 years, and this is definitely the top 3 of all time! (she also took crue's newborn photos). i could not be more thankful that Amber from Rosy Cheeks captured these moments for us. she absolutely understood what was on my mama heart and brought everything to life. these last moments with just crue are so bittersweet. these last moments with baby girl moving around my belly are so bittersweet. 
the entire day leading up to these photos was one disaster after another, and i cried more this day than i probably have in the last 10 years. i was such a hormonal emotional wreck! my poor husband. 
i like to think we pulled it off well anyways.

our last session as a family of 3. 

we're waiting for you baby girl.

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

baby G2 : weeks 33-36

i obviously got my hair done between 35 and 36. i am NOT a fan of being a brunette really, but i just could not do the roots anymore. my hair has been growing SO SO fast since being pregnant with baby girl! i knew that once she arrives, i wouldn't want to take 3+ hours away to sit in the salon any time soon - so i sucked it up and went a bit darker in hopes to handle that root situation a little bit longer than normal.

baby girl is absolutely head down but i am constantly trying to figure out what parts of her body are where. she is so much more painful than crue ever was! her absolute favorite place to jab is on my right side, waaay back in my kidneys. or whatever body part i have back there. YEESH.

i totally feel like she's a 10lb baby and has to be at least 25inches long. ha ha ha ha. but really.

my belly button is mostly out! majority of the left side sticks out all the time but theres a tiny part of the right side thats still flat. so odd?

still wearing rings!

the nursery is pretty much done. i keep finding little knick knacks on etsy, such as little scrabble letters that say "its a girl" that i wish to someday purchase and find a spot for - but for now - enough is enough. and i am so exhausted to do much more with it. i think i'm happy with the results. for now.

the exhaustion is real. i am napping about 2-3 hours every day with crue. every day i tell myself when big brother naps, i will have some me time. but nope! wrong! i can not keep my eyes open come 2pm!

33 weeks we had a small mini maternity session in a studio and got together with my lovely friend nicole from iowa. she has a daughter two weeks older than crue and they also came to his birthday party! we 'met' in an online group back in nov' 2012 when we were pregnant with our firsts, and she's also expecting her second now! she's a photographer too, so she snapped a few pictures for us during our park play date :) they always make a trip to the cities when they're in need of IKEA, and i'm so glad that they make time to see us! eisley and crue are super cute together.


how LOW does baby girl look?!
nicole on left, me on the right - just under 12 weeks apart.

i had booked that maternity session thinking it was in a completely different studio than it was in.. so that was kind of blah. but thats okay!

35+5 weeks we had another maternity/family session, with the same photographer that did crue's newborn and 6 month photos. & i was really looking forward to that! the day was BEYOND stressful and i don't think i have ever been more emotional or fuming as i was that day. howeverrrr, the photographer sent us a few sneak peeks and i LOVE every single one! she just messaged me yesterday saying that there are over 100 images and she is sending me the disc in the mail with ALL OF THEM. i can't wait to go through and share some here with you :)

for now, heres a peek! 

the photographer actually sent me that over Facebook PM after we had a conversation regarding my nerves on leaving crue and how overwhelmed i am feeling about him not being our baby anymore… this totally cheered me right up. my sweet boy. oh how i love him so.

and i know with baby girl - we will have so much fun as a family of 4!

36 weeks was mothers day! the weather was awful, but it was really nice to have a lazy day. especially a lazy sunday. i know that next year the day will look a whole lot busier! 2013 i was pregnant, 2014 crue was about 9 months old and took his first steps, 2015 i am pregnant and we will see what 2016 brings but i know we will have two littles and will be in the middle of FIRST BIRTHDAY planning for little girl! holy cow! time is nuts.

i am craving root beer floats and having one every night before bed like its my job. i am sure that my love handles are going to show every single one of them. damn.

i still have not gained 20lbs this pregnancy! i am proud of myself for that one!! HOLLA.

week 36 appointment was done at 36+5. doctor said i am 1cm and "soft". but i am smart enough to know that doesn't really mean anything.

even though baby girl looks fairly low, i know i carry her a little bit higher than i carried crue. i have a whole new batch of stretch marks above my belly button that were never there before.

thanks kids, love you too 


Monday, May 11, 2015

crue: 21 M0NTHS / the last as an only child.

all i can think about, is how this is his last month as an only child.

HE is doing okay. HE is doing well. awesome really!

many people are asking if he is excited about having a sister/sibling - but truth be told, he doesn't really understand the concept yet i don't believe. sure he knows that sissy is in my belly, sure he loves listening to her on the doppler… but things like her kicking his hand hasn't really stuck with him and i am pretty positive he has no idea a baby that is in my belly is about to come out of my belly.

but me?
i am feeling guilty. i am feeling sad. i am feeling emotional. i am ready for her to stay inside my belly for another 4 months.

i am thrilled to meet her. do NOT get me wrong about that!
i just, i sometimes feel like i am mourning the loss of my baby boy in some sort of way. or maybe i should say just the notion of him being an only child.
our days are so simple. so laid back.
just crue and mama.

im afraid that baby girl will turn his world upside down and he will become angry. or jealous. or depressed.
can toddlers be depressed?

i don't know.
but this month.

this last month as an only child. 21 months old. WE ARE LIVING IT UP.

isaiah and i are trying to do many things with crue, get out on all the weekends and spend a lot of time as a family of 3 making memories.

we went to trucksploration and crue LOVED it. we got to see some army tanks, another firetruck and police car (he has seen both before), a lot of construction trucks, cranes and more. poor boy didn't really understand the concept of leaving one truck to let another child on or go see another one yet so dealing with a small tantrum after every truck was kind of overwhelming but we made it through!

thursdays are our my least favorite day, probably crues favorite. every morning the garbage trucks come by and he FLIES out of bed. he can be in an absolute dead sleep but hears that truck coming and he is at the window before i can even open my eyes. this is usually about 3 hours before he wakes up regularly, so you can imagine he's just a peach until nap time. boyfriend doesn't leave the window until they're out of site.. and if its also a recycling day, thats about an hour! dedication ya'll.

we had our second mothers day together and i loved every minute of it. the weather was cold and rainy, so after brunch we just spent the day lounging around home. a lot more low key than his first mothers day when he began to walk and went to the park for the first time, but ill never forget either one!

lots of dinners and desserts around town. we had ice cream at grand ole' creamery on grand ave which is a huge favorite. just like his mama, crue LOVES dessert. but just like his daddy, ice cream and cookies are his weakness!

last month? i think it was in april, he fell while running and got a huge gash in his forehead. we ended up getting glue stitches and now its finally healing but it looks AWFUL. and i am so sad about it. isaiah swears it'll get better, but i just don't know. it seems like his head has a permanent indent and pink scar. :(

crue is figuring out some more words, though i don't think he's talking as much as some other kids his age that i have witnessed. i'm not sure if he's behind or if its just not his thing yet. we didn't get an 18mo doctors appointment so we will be waiting until he's 2 to figure it out. for now i can tell he's picking up new words and understanding EVERYTHING so i am not too worried. i am hoping that he learns some sentences and more two word phrases here soon though.

he is amazing at sports. still. golf and hockey are his jam. i am pretty sure he could beat tiger woods at a round.

ignore every toy in our house but the hockey stick, the golf club and a ball or two. those will entertain him for hours. i've moved most of his toys up into his room because 90% of them go unplayed with unless they're sports related. kind of nice to free up our living room a bit, but we will only be putting baby gear back in very shortly!

started eating meat again, FINALLY. but only with ranch. not a fan of ketchup or anything else.
insists on eating with adult utensils and forks. won't his use his fingers.
had cereal for the first time in a bowl with milk and fed himself all of it like such a big boy!

has all of his teeth, i think the 2 year molars are working their way in right now.

every night its a kissing war. mommy, daddy, mommy, daddy. MUUUUAHH! it tickles my heart.

naps are about 2-3 hours every day and i am so very thankful for them. we nap together and i am soaking up every moment of mr snuggles!

has spent some nights and naps in his big boy bed, but even more nights and naps in our bed. i am sure that I'm digging myself a huge hole here but i just can not let him go! sniffle.

got another haircut!

had family photos/maternity photos done.

when he laughs really hard, he drools. just like his daddy.

i never want to forget these moments. its crazy how fast time flies.
god has fully surpassed my wildest dreams of being a mother and he could not have given me a better baby, a better boy, to start this journey with.

crue, may you never forget how much you mean to us!